My mother's womb
Catarina Isabel
Catarina Isabel
My mother's womb is a catacomb
For all my ungrown selves;
They live in a faraway home
Blind to what I've become.
I search old bookshelves
With a belly full of rum:
When did we betray ourselves?
Don't play coy,
The changes have already begun
I am my mother's favourite boy,
But nothing's written in stone
I might grow into a flower instead;
Flowers, I suppose, bring joy.
Still, my mother's hopes are left unsaid
And I can't recall what was the toy
I had in my hand when she told me:
"One day you'll grow, be prepared
You'll get a nice degree,
And all your talents will be shared;
You're so mature"
No words, but I knew, no key
To a locked secret either, no cure.
I guess I might as well be a tree
Or lock myself inside a coffin.
(I knit myself together, did a terrible job;
I don't think I am ready to grow just yet,
Can I go back? To my mother's womb?
To the hopes left unbirthed?)
For all my ungrown selves;
They live in a faraway home
Blind to what I've become.
I search old bookshelves
With a belly full of rum:
When did we betray ourselves?
Don't play coy,
The changes have already begun
I am my mother's favourite boy,
But nothing's written in stone
I might grow into a flower instead;
Flowers, I suppose, bring joy.
Still, my mother's hopes are left unsaid
And I can't recall what was the toy
I had in my hand when she told me:
"One day you'll grow, be prepared
You'll get a nice degree,
And all your talents will be shared;
You're so mature"
No words, but I knew, no key
To a locked secret either, no cure.
I guess I might as well be a tree
Or lock myself inside a coffin.
(I knit myself together, did a terrible job;
I don't think I am ready to grow just yet,
Can I go back? To my mother's womb?
To the hopes left unbirthed?)
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Catarina Isabel is a queer 17-year-old from Portugal. Some of her interests include making playlists or going to underground concerts. You can usually find her in her bed, looking out the window.
Catarina Isabel is a queer 17-year-old from Portugal. Some of her interests include making playlists or going to underground concerts. You can usually find her in her bed, looking out the window.